Ho Ho Ho Merry Christmas! Well, it's a start, as it is only a day after Thanksgiving and I have already started my holiday shopping, and this year the list is longer as I am doing a little bit better than last year's economic disaster. This year is going to be much jolly-er, holly-er, smiley-er! When things are tough, times/even many years are tough, I don't know about you, but I usually crawl into my shell and not write or call or visit people I love because I want to save them from all the negativity of me being down or me being a downer. No one wants to be around downers or listen or hear from them, because, it is stuff that brings you down. I have been journeying that space for many years now and only now, see twinkles of light.
It's too bad that people have forgotten about me, or worse, dislike me because of the problems and avoid me like I have some contagious disease. I finally get into some twinkles of light, and only a handful are there to greet me in becoming alive again! Gez!!!!! But let me say that I embrace and truly love those who care about me.
They say that more people are suicidal during the holidays. I can understand and feel that I know the answer as to why. So far, I have survived to enjoy the handful of dear, super-divine, and loving human beings that are here for me, that make me feel alive.
Thank you so very much for sticking with me. This year, I am going to write and send out Christmas Cards and do gifts I can afford. I am going to make the best of my life by taking pictures on my new cellphone and facebooking and blogging them---risking boring you all to death, but for me, bonds and links us together in what holidays truly are about....bringing everyone together and enjoying the moment!
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